da world is falling apart. HangInThere

boo holidays are ending soon. time past so fast. then common test will be coming up soon. looks like this time really have to study cannot last minute pia alr. like nevin said "u dun study for common test. u do v badly for it. ur parents scold u. u wake up. u study like fuk for promos. u got A for all the subjects. but u cannot promote to j2 cause ur common test suck." if that happens then damn sad la. but come to think of it abit impossible. because promos weightage 40% so if u get all A's then should be able to promote alr. but nonetheless still must study for common test.

anyway, holidays was quite fun but boring at times. maybe it's more of peaceful than boring. lol playing soccer, slping in the EG room, if only the holidays never end. but nvm i think when sch reopens we will still be playing soccer and hanging ard together and stuff. and i cant wait for training to resume.

oh yah got one woodlands wellington player become the girls soccer coach's asssistant. he damn cocky la. S league only what thing he very big ahh. i think he reserves only la. anyway we are planning to watch woodlans wellington's match one of this days and boo him if he plays. lol

loads of hw not done yet. and i still catch no balls for chem and math. if this goes on i'll retain. but its not so bad cause if i retain then i can play in A div for 3 years. lol but my place in the squad is not guaranteed also. have to fight for it. haven train my stamina and train my leg muscles yet.

so many things not done, so little time ):

last thursday my bio tutor came to have a talk with me. she said alot of things which enlightened me. but what surprised me most was that she felt that i was under performing and i had the potential to do better. HAHAHA she said that i can achieve good results without much trouble if i put my mind to it. and she expects me to top the class for biology. but i've not been living up to expectations. LOL what she said was music to my ears and i shall not disappoint her.

she then talked to me about PROFESSIONALISM. what she said made alot of sense and could be applied in my school work and also on the field. she said that there are bound to be conflicts and misunderstandings with people in life. and the way we handle it will determine how successful we are. one way to solve them is to swallow your pride and to take things in your stride and accept criticism even if it is not true. BUT thats so NOT me. another way, which is the method i'll adopt, is to to do things professionally. or simply put, gong1 si1 fen1 ming2. she said that we need to learn how to deal with the problem by putting aside our differences and get the job done. just get out of each other's way and tolerate for awhile to achieve our common goal. we may not be on good terms with one another but we'll just have to sit down and cooperate for awhile, accomplish what we set out to do first. then we can go our own ways or maybe fight it out with one another. i've thought about it and what she said really makes sense. i'll just have to try to keep the temper in check for the sake of the team. we shall all work hard towards the championship and put aside our differences for the team's cause.

whatever i do must benefit and not harm the team. only then will we be able to challenge for the trophy.

JJ ruggers did the school proud by winning the plate. no doubt i was happy for them especially my friends who were in the team. however wtching them celebrate their win with the trophy in their hands i couldnt help but remember the soccer boys agonising failure to qualify to the secondround this season. deep down in my heart jealousy was growing. idesperately want to win the A div championship and nothing is going to stand between me and the trophy. definitely not ego problems and minor squabbles which will break the harmony in the squad.

PROFESSIONALISM~

this few days has been terrible man. i cant wait for the holidays to come.

i seriously need a break.

yesterday's training session was okay but it was marred by my spat with kokyao. it was a moment of folly. i still dont know why i allowed my emotions to take over me.

i dun give a damn even if other people call me a water boy or ball picker. i always believed that its all for the cause of the team. but yesterday i started to think that my teamates are beginning to take my services for granted and that hurts the most. that was probably why i lost control of my emotions. it wont happen again.

i have always wanted to bring back the trophy next season, not only to bask in the glory but also to prove a point to those who labelled the soccer team as a bunch of losers. and to also repay the hardwork imran, ham and chris had put in. they taught me alot and the best way to repay them would be to present them with the trophy at the end of the next season. but what i did yesterday was hurting our chances of achieving that goal. i've disappointed them and my teamates. as a "senior" player in the team, i should have instilled discipline and unity in the team but my actions proved otherwise and i deeply regret it. i felt a sense of helplessness and i collapsed.

team unity is what will bring us far in the tournament and that is what me and kokyao believe in. i shouldnt look back now. let me make amends for my mistake. i will let my boots do the talking.